Thursday, January 29

I think I found the cure for my problem. Believe it or not sometimes these things do make sense. I guess I am more comfortable being in the comfort zone that I don't

step up or step out
speak my mind
speak honestly to any of you

not all the time. just when things matter. for example, when I could not go out to the musical Katrina invited me, I had to write an email explaining my problem because well, I couldn't tell her on the phone or via sms.

when you ask me my honest opinion about something that matters to you, I simply butter you up and keep what I really think inside until I spill it over pages of the book.

when I decide to take up an important position or when I do take on a role I have been coveting, I do it with a twinge of apprehension. afraid that I would not be able to do it well, afraid of what other will think of me.

all that led to my problem. and now that I see it, maybe I can change this and that about myself. Maybe now I can open my mouth more, I can face up to my challenges better. and finally, the problem will go away. finally.

so now, I solemnly swear (in a promise kind of way) to start getting better. okay?

our love lingers at 9:04:00 AM
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